This is the first time i post my entry in my very new blog..I wish i could share and benefit other people with what i have..Then , blog is one of the ways, perhaps, insyaALLAH..
I truly grow up as a negative person. Negative.. My life brings me up so. Previously, I used to regret with my life, yet it changed fortunately in the middle of my age..
Now, I appreciate almost every part of my life. It gives me lessons and built me as I am now. One of my friends said, its ok being negative, thats the true me, thats my character, as long as I can handle it..
I used to see every good thing happened to me actually was not for me. It is for another person, but it happened to me just as a test (probably)..I didnt really enjoy it as i feared of giving hope to myself, then it will be damnly pain when I lost it.. Thats among the reasons why I am so...negative...denial...insensitive..
Afraid of losing things i love..
Afraid of loving things which are not mine..
My friend further said to me, there is a way to subside the negative. It does not promise a success, yet I can put a try, then it is up to me. It somehow sounds like this..
"When you get something good, you deserve of it..try to give back to the other people so they can get something good they deserve also..even just like holding person's hand to cross a road..then you will feel good..making other people deserve your kindness..then, you will feel deserved for what you have.."
They are really meaningful words...
Then, I further realize..Life is so wonderful..With its beautiful colours..It is how we explore and appreciate what we have in our life..I wish I could explore it more..